Realzing that she now held her life in her hands, Reini slowly glanced up at the shiny gold lock on the bedroom door and then back at Justin. If she was going to do it, she needed to do it now while he was distracted. 

After seeing the look on Justin's face as he glanced down at the caller ID, she knew that he was going to take the call. She couldn't be sure if the call would be quick or not, but she knew there wasn't a moment of time to waste. This was it. 

As Justin stared out at the city from his bedroom window, Reini slowly reached her hand up and unlocked the door. After checking to make sure that he didn't hear anything, Reini shifted positions and opened the door just enough to slip out without being noticed. 

Once she was safely on the other side of the door, Reini placed her hand on the wall and forced herself to endure the pain that coursed through her body as she attempted to stand up. 

"I have to get out of here." she cried out, practically dragging herself down the hall towards the livingroom. "God, please help me." 

Hearing the soft cries come from down the hall, JC stood up and hesitantly walked towards the hall. 

"Ah Jesus Christ." 

Seeing the sight before him, JC felt almost compelled to help her. Clearly she was in need of help. 

Unfortunately for her, JC never got the chance. It only took Justin a few seconds to realize that she was gone and she could hear the heavy footsteps as he ran towards the door. 

"You little fuckin BITCH!" 

Seeing his best friend come flying out of his room, JC knew that the apartment was the last place he wanted to be and quickly turned back around. It was bad enough to see her in the condition she was in now and he knew he couldn't stomach anymore. He had to get out of there. 

Quickly pulling his keys from his pocket, JC headed for the front door and never looked back. 

"Going somewhere?!" Justin yelled, forcefully grabbing her by the back of her hair as she struggled to get away. "You know, I would have thought that at some point your common sense would have kicked in and told that you're going about this all the wrong way Ray, but clearly that is not the case. How fucking dumb are you?!" 

"Justin please don't!" Reini begged, quickly reaching behind her to try and alleviate some of the pain. 

"You don't call the shots around here Ray, I do, and right now I think it's time that we get a few things straight between us." 

Fearing exactly what he meant by his statement, Reini began to cry uncontrollably as he led her back up the hall and through the living room. 

"Come on Ray. Let's get a look at the big picture, shall we." he growled, practically lifting her feet off the floor as he pushed her in to the dining room. 

After whipping a chair from it's position at the table, Justin slammed it down on the other side of the kitchen counter and forced her in to it. 

"You know how many girls would kill to be in your position Ray?!" he said, shuffling through a stack of mail on the counter. "I mean, just look around. New York's Penthouse Princes, America's Most Wanted Bachelor, Timberlake Triumphs Again!" he yelled, firing the various magazines and tabloids at her. "I'm a fuckin God around here!" 

As Reini tried to shield herself from flying periodicals, Justin's breathing became more of a raspy growl. Knowing it was in her best interest to just keep her mouth shut, Reini glanced down at the mess laying at her feet and hoped that by some miracle that things weren't going to get as carried away as she feared. 

"I mean, Christ Ray! If you like praying so much, get down on your knees and pray to someone who is fuckin worthy of it!" he yelled, quickly sprinting back around the counter to kick her chair over. 

As Reini fell backwards on to the hardwood floor, she knew that she was in trouble. Clearly Justin was on power trip and there wasn't anything she could say or do to stop it. 

"Come on Ray! Lay it on me! Let me hear those saintly words of wisdom." 

Turning slightly on her side, Reini glanced up at him and knew without a doubt that she was going down. Now there was only one question that remained. Was she going down with or without a fight? 

"Justin please." 

"Pleading isn't going to do a damn thing for you this time Ray." he replied, reaching down to move the chair out of his path. 

Taking the distraction as her cue, Reini quickly scrambled up to her feet and ran as fast as she could across the room. 

"Justin, please. You don't need to do this!" 

"You know what, that's all I keep hearing out of your fuckin mouth Ray! 'Justin please!' 'Don't do this!' 'I'm sorry!' You're pathetic. Absolutely pathetic!" he growled, desperately trying to figure out where she was going to run next. "Come on Ray. Let's just do this and get it over with." he continued, an eery sense of calmness suddenly taking over his voice as he stood straight up. 

Watching as he matched her every movement, Reini knew she had nowhere to go. Every escape that stood before her would be blocked in a matter of seconds. 

Feeling her heart race with a sense of panic that she had never felt before, Reini saw the reflection of the terrace behind her in the mirror and took a deep breath. Granted it wasn't an ideal escape, but at least it would open up access to other areas of his apartment where she could figure something out. 

Sensing that she was up to something, Justin tried to gauge what she was looking at. Once he put two and two together, he quickly leapt in to action. 

Seeing him come directly at her, Reini turned sharply on her heels and ran out on to the terrace. Unfortunately before either one of them could get their bearings as they skidded on to the slick stone surface, Justin slammed in to Reini knocking her back against the railing. 

"JUSTIN DON'T!" Reini screamed out, fear consuming every ounce of her body as her feet slowly started to brake contact with the floor. 

"WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO NOW RAY?! ARE YOU THINKING NOW THAT MAYBE YOU SHOULD HAVE QUIT WHEN YOU HAD THE CHANCE?" he growled, bending her 
further back over the rail. 

"OH MY GOD! JUSTIN PLEASE DON'T! PLEASE!" 

"It's too late Ray. We're here now. There's no turning back." 

Clutching on to his shirt for dear life, Reini struggled to get her feet back on solid ground. Unfortunately the more she struggled, the harder Justin pushed her backwards. 

"I really hope you do believe in God baby, because right now, he is the only one that can save you." he laughed and with one final push had her teetering precariously over the edge of the building. 

"JUSTIN!" 

Suddenly hearing the sound of the front door opening, Justin looked over his shoulder and saw his best friend walking back in to the apartment and froze in place. 

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?!" JC yelled, quickly heading across the living room. 

Realizing that JC had come back, Reini began to frantically kick and scream for help. She knew he was her only hope and had to make sure he knew what was going on. As much as he loved to torment her, she was sure that even he would think that Justin had taken things way too far. 

"JC! HELP ME!" 

Feeling Reini struggle beneath his grasp, Justin quickly turned his attention back to her. Unfortunately before he realized what was happening, Reini's frantic struggle for help forced her weight to shift and she started to slide over the edge. 

"JUSTIN! NO!" 

"FUCK! REINI!" 

Seeing Justin lose his grasp on Reini, JC lept over the table and ran on to the terrace. He just couldn't believe his eyes. 

"HOLD ON RAY!" Justin screamed, his face distorted with pain as he braced himself against the rail with one hand and held on to Reini's wrist with the other. "JACE HELP ME! SHE'S SLIPPING!" 

Quickly bending over the rail, JC reached down and tried desperately to grab a hold of Reini's other hand. 

"RAY, GIVE ME YOU HAND!" 

"I CAN'T REACH IT!" she cried out, her fingers extended upward hoping to make contact with JC's hand. 

"YES YOU CAN DAMN IT! REACH!" JC yelled, watching as her long brown hair whipped around in front of her tear stained face. 

"I'M GOING TO LOSE HER!" Justin yelled, his own body now bent over the rail as the force of gravity continued to pull her downward. 

"JUSTIN PLEASE DON'T LET ME GO!" she pleaded

"We're mot going to let you go Ray! Now, reach for my hand! COME ON! You can do it!" JC tried to sound calm for himself as much as her. 

Knowing that they only had a matter of seconds until they both went over the edge, Justin took a deep breath and fought to arch his body backwards in an attempt to bring her closer to JC's reach. 

"That's it. I almost got her! Come on!" 

Letting out a loud grunt, Justin used all the strength he could manage and jerked himself backwards. As he did, JC finally grabbed a hold of her wrist and began pulling her up. 

"We got you. Come on." 

As Justin and JC continued to pull her back up, she managed to get enough footage on the side of the building and one more quick pull was all it took bring her back to safety. 

"WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING?!" JC yelled, watching Justin quickly scramble over to Reini as she sat on the floor of the terrace. 

Ignoring his question, Justin wrapped his arms around Reini's trembling body and pulled her tightly against him. 

"I'm so sorry baby. I don't know what the hell I would have done if anything happened to you." he sobbed, rocking her softly as she cried in to his chest. 

"JUSTIN?! WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?!" 

When JC still didn't get an answer, he threw his hands up in defeat and stormed back in to the apartment to try and pull himself together. The fact that he almost witnessed a death first hand quickly taking it's toll on his already frazzled emotional state. 

"I need a god damn drink!" he groaned and after a quick glance in their direction headed over to the bar. 

"Are you alright?" Justin asked, slowly bringing Reini's tear filled gaze up to meet his. 

Still trembling, Reini just stared at him with widened eyes. Her mouth opened slightly when she tried to speak, but it quickly closed when she realized she didn't know what to say. How could he even ask her if she was alright after what he had just done. 

"Ray, please talk to me." Justin pleaded, his eyes quickly scanning her face for any sign of emotion. "I said I was sorry. It was an accident." 

Letting out a slight laugh, Reini slipped from his hold and stared at him. 

"Is that supposed to be funny?!" 

"Is what supposed to be funny?" he asked, completely confused by her comment. 

"I accidentally kick you and for payback, I'm supposed to believe that you accidentally knocked me over the terrace?!" 

"It was an accident Ray! I can't believe you would think I could do something like that on purpose!" 

"I don't believe you! I mean...I'm just....." she began to say, but quickly found herself tripping over her words. "I can't do this Justin. I'm sorry." 

And without so much as even looking back at him, Reini pushed herself to her feet and headed back in to the apartment. 

"Where are you going?" 

"I'm leaving. I can't do this Justin. I can't live my life like this." 

"I said I was sorry Ray!" 

"Yeah, but you and I both know that you aren't." she said, wiping the tears from her eyes as she headed towards Justin's bedroom. "That's the problem." 

Letting out a heavy sigh, Justin headed down the hall after her, only stopping briefly to address his best friend who was watching everything unfold from the other side of the bar. 

"Don't even say it man. Just go about your business." 

"Trust me man. Whatever you got going on, I don't want any part of." JC exclaimed, pointing his finger in Justin's direction. 

Shaking his head with disgust, Justin continued down the hall in search of Reini. Once he walked in to his bedroom, he saw her gathering her stuff from his dresser and laughed. 

"Where are you going?" 

"I already told you. I can't do this. I'm leaving." 

"I heard that part Ray, but why are you taking you're stuff?" 

"I'm not leaving for the night Justin. I'm leaving....for good. As in the 'it's over between us' type of leaving." she replied, throwing her purse over her shoulder. 

"So that's it?! You're just going to toss everything we had away because of one mistake?" 

"It wasn't just one mistake Justin!" 

"You mean on your part, right baby?" 

Glaring at him from across the room, Reini felt her blood begin to boil. She just couldn't believe the nerve he had trying to make it seem like this was all her fault. Especially when he was the one who almost took her life! 

"No, I don't mean on my part!" 

"You know what, I said it was an accident Ray. If you even cared half as much about me as you claim to, you would know that." he replied, an arrogant tone dancing heavily across his words as he deliberately turned the tables on her. "But hey, if you want to leave, go ahead and leave. I'm sure you're just dying to get back to Channing anyway." 

"How dare you!" 

"How dare I? How dare you Ray!" 

"It's Reini Justin! Not Ray....not baby...or sweetheart...Reini! Think you can get that straight?! My name is Reini!" 

Unsure of how to respond to her outburst, Justin stood in the doorway with his arms folded across his chest in front of him and just stared her down. The brashness of her comment cutting away at the last bit of patience he was holding on to. 

"Fine....REINI. I'm sorry things didn't work out the way you wanted them to. Guess I just couldn't compare to your little live in poster boy. Hope you two have a nice life together." 

Chapter 17

Shaking her head with utter disbelief, Reini decided to just ignore the comment and walk past him and out the door. Clearly he was delusional if he even thought for a moment that she wanted Channing over him. 

Once she walked past him and out in to the hall, Reini headed towards the front door. Without even realizing it, she found herself trying to hear if he was following after her. Pathetically hoping that he would call out to her and tell her not to leave. Unfortunately by the time she realized that none of those things were happening, she was standing at the door with a decision to make. She hated herself for not being able to just walk out the door. The man had almost ended her life, and yet she still didn't have it in her to walk away. 

Letting out a heavy sigh, Reini glanced over her shoulder and saw Justin still standing in the doorway watching her. 

"What are you waiting for? Go!" 

Feeling like her heart was about to break, Reini stood there on the verge of tears and watched him easily dismiss her. 

"GO! Don't wait for me to stop you, because the second you walk out that door, I'll have twenty more just like you lined up." 

"Justin...." 

What?!" 

"Why don't love me?!" she yelled, tears now streaming down her cheeks as she turned quickly on her heels to face him. It was the only thing she could think to say. 

"Is that supposed to be funny? I don't love you?! You won't let me love you Ray, remember?! You're saving yourself." 

"That's not what I meant." 

"Yeah well, it's what I meant. I mean, you can't possibly expect me to just run around New York with you on my arm as a friend. Because that's the equivalent of what we have, right? A friendship?" 

"That isn't fair. You know why we aren't having sex! Why can't you respect that it's how I was brought up? That it's what I believe in? Why does it always have to be about that?!" 

"Hey, I'm so far over it Ray....seriously." he quickly replied, motioning towards the door before heading back in to his bedroom. 

Caught off guard by his sudden departure, Reini stood there for a few seconds wondering what to do. She originally had every intention of walking out that door, but now she wasn't sure what she wanted. After all, she loved Justin. She enjoyed the time they spent together when he wasn't upset about something, but if he wasn't going to change, could she deal with things continuing on the way they were. 

Hearing a sound come from her left, Reini glanced across the living room and saw JC sitting his glass back down on the bar and sighed heavily. 

"Are you alright?" he asked, pouring himself a refill. 

Unsure of what to say, Reini simply shrugged her shoulders and slowly headed back down the hall towards Justin's bedroom, hoping that by some miracle she could sort her feelings out. 

Once she reached his bedroom, she saw him pulling his t-shirt up over his head. After tossing it on the dresser, Justin pulled open the double set of door that led to his closet and walked in. 

"Justin..." 

"I thought you were leaving." he said casually, sliding a button down shirt from it's hanger. 

"I am...I mean....I was." 

"Was?" he continued, grabbing a pair of black shoes from their place on his neatly lined shelf. 

"Can you please just stop and talk to me." she yelled, quickly grabbing a hold of his arm as he brushed past her. 

"I'm sorry, I can't. I'm getting ready to go out. It will have to be some other time." he said, glancing down at his watch. "I can probably get a good two hours in at least before the clubs close. Plenty of time to have some fun now that I'm single." 

"Ok! Alright! I get it!" . 

"Do you Ray? I mean...do you really get it?" he asked, stopping what he was doing to look at her. "Because unless this situation gets resolved somehow..." 

"I know." Reini sobbed, wiping away the tears that were building in her eyes. 

Letting out a heavy sigh, Justin tossed his shirt down on the bed and grabbed her wrist to pull her over to him. 

"Justin....you know I love you, don't you? I mean, just because we aren't having sex doesn't mean I don't love you or that I want to be with someone else." 

Bringing his hand up to her cheek, he brushed away a few more tears and tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. Just looking at the change in her demeanor from the way she was acting five minutes ago until now, clearly showed that things had turned around in his favor. 

"It's not enough to just say you love someone. Actions speak louder than words, and from what I hear...you don't." 

"But I do. I do love you." she said softly, looking up in to his blue eyes. 

"Then show me Ray. If you really love me, show me." 

"Justin, you know I can't.........I can't have sex with you." The words that normally came out with such conviction, were suddenly laced with shame. 

"There are other things we can do besides have sex Ray. All you have to do is trust that you'll be in good hands." he said, softly sliding his hand between her legs.

Gasping slightly, Reini locked eyes with Justin and felt her heart skip a beat. She knew that if they were going to work things out between them that she would have to make some sacrifices, but she didn't think she was going to have to commit herself to the cause that quick.

"It's ok Ray. I'm not some stranger looking for a good time." he said, wrapping his arm around her waist. "Just let nature take it's course."

"Justin...I'm scared."

"Don't be." he said, slowly releasing his hold on her so that he could turn around and lock the door. "I promise I won't hurt you. Just come here."

Swallowing the large lump that was rising up in the back of her throat, Reini timidly tucked a piece of hair behind her ear and allowed Justin to once again pull her over to him. Once her body was pressed up against his, he let out a soft moan. He knew that sex wasn't an option tonight, but that didn't mean he wasn't about to thoroughly enjoy her body.

Grabbing a hold of the hem on her shirt, Justin slowly lifted it up and over her head, tossing it on to the bed beside him. Feeling the cold air against her skin, Reini shuddered and unknowingly moved closer to the warmth radiating from Justin's body. Taking that as his cue, Justin brushed away the stray strands of hair that her shirt disrupted and cradled her face in his hand.

"You do trust me, don't you?" he asked, softly grazing her cheek with is thumb.

Unable to do nothing more at the moment than nod her head 'yes', Reini locked her eyes with his and gently placed her hands on his hips. But truth be told, she wasn't sure if she did or not. Especially after everything that had been going on. She was just going to have to have a little faith and hope that by night's end, she would still respect him...and herself.

"Just don't ruin this for us. I know where you stand when it comes to certain things and I promise...at least for tonight...you have nothing to worry about." 

Feeling ashamed and slightly embarrassed already, Reini attempted to drop her head but Justin refused to let her. She may have been a stranger to the world of pleasure and self gratification before she met him, but if she was going to continue to be a part of his life, she was going to have to reinvent herself.

Letting out a slow and steady breath, Justin's other hand joined the first as it cradled her face and he slowly brought her lips to his. A deep hunger that had been burning inside him already making itself apparent as he quickly backed her against the wall.

After gasping from the cold surface of the wall making contact with the exposed skin on her back, Reini arched her back away, bringing her chest instantly in to Justin's view.

"Looks like we still have some clothing to get rid of, don't we?" he asked, seductively licking his bottom lip.

Realizing he meant more than her bra, Reini stood trembling as Justin worked to slowly unfasten the button of her jeans. Once he had it free, he made quick work of the zipper and slid them down over her hips. Unfortunately he soon realized that the removal of that particular article of clothing was being hindered by her still present shoes.

"You're going to make me work for this, aren't you?" he asked seductively, crouching down in front of her so that he could slide her shoes off.

After removing both shoes and sliding her jeans the rest of the way off, Justin tossed them aside and glanced up at her.

Feeling like her face was a bright shade of crimson, Reini avoided his gaze and instead kept her focus straight ahead. The shame she felt from being so exposed in front of him quickly grabbing a hold of her.

Letting a slight chuckle escape his lips, Justin repositioned himself at her feet and slowly slid his hands up her legs, stopping at her waist to hook his fingers under the thin bands of her underwear that wrapped around her hips. Hearing her take in a deep breath, Justin let a smile dance across his lips and slowly slid them downward.

"Justin..."

"Reini..." he mocked, his voice deep with desire as he lifted each foot to remove them.

Dropping her head back against the wall, Reini tried to focus on something...anything other than what she feared was about to occur. Unfortunately, no sooner did she think the thought, did she feel the hot breath of Justin's mouth on the inside of her thigh, just above her knee.

Instantly thinking she should stop him from going any further, Reini reached forward and placed her hand against his forehead.

Leaning back slightly, Justin sat down on the heels of his feet and looked up her. Her obvious discomfort with what was going on evident as she bit down firmly on her lower lip.

"Ray, you can't keep going in to panic mode everytime I touch you. You have to relax."
Turning her head to the side, Reini let out the breath she didn't know she was holding and slowly placed her arms back against the wall.

"Thats my girl." he said, once again taking up his position in front of her. "Just remember to breath baby. It will be alright." he continued, a hint of cockiness in his voice as he reached down to slid her feet further apart.

Letting her head fall back against the wall once again, Reini tried her best to remain calm as she felt Justin's breath on her inner thigh once more.

Knowing that he had been dreaming about this moment from the time he laid eyes on her, Justin moaned seductively and continued his path upward. When he finally reached what he was looking for, he placed his hands firmly against her hips and held her to the wall. 

Confident that he would be able to gain access her with little protest, Justin leaned forward and traced his tongue between the folds of her intermost center.

Gasping at the sensations he was causing to build within her body, Reini's hands clung desperately to the wall as he continued to stroke her intimately with his tongue. The heat that was now radiating from her face, suddenly paling in comparison to the fire she felt building between her legs.

Suddenly hearing a soft moan escape her tightly sealed lips, Justin smiled against her and continued to savor everything she had to offer. He would be lying if he said he was surprised she wasn't protesting as much as he thought she would.

Feeling Reini's body begin to give way slightly, Justin traced his tongue up her moist center one more time and stood back up.

"You alright Ray?" he asked, the warmth of his breath against her ear causing a slight chill to run down over her as he leaned down slightly.

Simply nodding her head, Reini locked eyes with him and tried to keep her wits about her. It was as if she was off in a world all her own. Her body relaxing against him as the pleasure he insighted drifted throughout her body.

"Felt good, didn't it?" he moaned, sliding his hand back down her stomach and stopping once he reached his target. "It's ok you know...to enjoy it. It doesn't make you a bad person Ray."

Feeling a few tears begin to well in her eyes, Reini turned her head away from him and stared at the wall.

"It's just not how I was raised Justin." she began, turning her face back to his. "It's not right."

"You know, you keep focusing all your attention on the guilt because of what you were told, of what others felt was right for you, but what you should really be focusing on is what you want, what you feel Ray. Allow yourself to experience what pleasure feels like." he said, gently caressing between her legs.

"But...."

"Uh uh. Shhhh." Justin whispered, capturing her mouth with his once again. "Don't think about it, just let it happen." he continued, suddenly sliding two fingers deep inside her. A small whimper just barely able to escape her lips as Justin's kiss continued to muffle the soft noise. 

Keeping his hand in place, Justin continued to gently slide his fingers in and out of her, creating an almost perfect rhythm. Not wanting to stop their forward progress, Justin used his foot to part her legs even further as he continued to devour her lips. As Reini's body began to slowly accept what was happening, her now barely audible whimper began to turn in to a soft purr and Justin felt himself gowing hard. 

After a few more small strokes, their lips finally parted and he began working his way down her neck. Nibbling softly on the tender skin along her collarbone.

Tilting her head to the side to allow him better access, Reini soon realized that she was actually beginning to enjoy herself and wrapped her fingers around the back of Justin's neck.

"See what you've been missing being a good little girl Ray?" Justin growled, wrapping an arm around her waist so that he could pull her over to the chair with him.

Once Justin had found a comfortable position, he grabbed a hold of Reini's hands and pulled her over to him.

"Come here baby."

After allowing Justin to pull her closer, Reini stood there and watched as adjusted himself in his pants. Worried that he was going to try and take things to the next level, she tried to take a step backward.

"Whoa. Where are you going?"

"Justin...I....."

"It's alright Ray. It's not like I'm taking it out or anything. Just trying to make him a bit more comfortable" he said, shifting in his chair once more. "Now, why don't you be a good little girl and come sit down" he said, patting his lap. 

Hanging her head for a second, Reini took notice of her nearly naked frame and tried to cover herself some with her hands.

"You're so cute." he laughed, reaching out to grab a hold of her hand. "I've already seen it 
Ray, there's nothing to be ashamed of. Besides, it's how God created us, right?" he said, giving her a playful wink as he pulled her the rest of the way over.

Once she was standing in front of him, Justin sat forward and softly kissed her stomach. The erection he now had, fighting the confines of his jeans and begging to be set free.

"Come on Ray. Don't be shy."

Realizing her only option at this point was to do as she was told, Reini let out a heavy sigh placed her right knee along side of Justin's thigh. Once she had found her balance, she followed with her left and gently lowered herself on to his lap.

Licking his lips at the thought of what it would feel like if he wasn't restricted by his jeans, Justin grabbed her hips and shifted her slightly.

"I think it's time to get rid of this last little piece of clothing, don't you?" 

Chapter 18

After making quick work of sliding the straps down over both of her shoulders, Justin tossed it on the floor with the rest of her clothes and slid his hands up her back.  Placing a gently pressure on her shoulders, Justin arched her slightly away from him and found his eyes drawn in to the sight of her breasts rising and falling in rhythmn to her now heavy breathing.

Not wasting another second, Justin leaned forward. Licking small circles around her nipple, Justin moaned softly against her skin before finally taking one into his mouth. As he did, he caressed her other breast with his free hand, waiting to hear some sort of objection from Reini as she sat teetering on his lap.  Surprisingly though, he hadn't heard her utter a single protest.  She had simply allowed her head to fall back slightly.

After removing his mouth from her one breast, Justin quickly captured the other and continued his skillful work.  Hoping to inflict the same pleasure he had obviously accomplished with the first one.

As he did, he heard a soft moan escape Reini's lips and he quickly arched her back towards him. 

"What's this Ray?  My good girl gone bad?" he asked, sliding his hands down over the soft curves of her hips so he could grab her ass.

Embarrassed at the fact that she vocalized the pleasure she wasn't supposed to be feeling, that she knew wasn't right to feel, Reini attempted to get up from his lap.

"Where are going?" he asked, grabbing a hold of her wrist to hold her in  place.

"Justin...I just can't do this anymore.  I tried, I really did, but...."

"But.....you're done now?  Just like that?" 

"I'm sorry.  I just....I feel dirty."  she replied softly, quickly trying to cover her exposed body once again.

"So what am I supposed to do now Ray?  Sit here and jack off?!"

"Justin..."

"No, I'm serious?  I wanna know?  Do you expect me to just take care of myself?"

Giving him a sympathetic look, Reini stood there and stared at his now obvious excitement.  She hated this.  She knew that this would happen and that he would undoubtedly want to go the distance and actually have sex, but she just couldn't let that happen.  She wasn't ready.

"Well?"

Tucking a piece of hair behind her ear, Reini reluctantly took the few small steps back over to where he was and crouched down.  After letting out a heavy sigh, Reini reached forward and began to unfasten the button of his jeans.

Caught by surprise, Justin leaned back slightly and took in the sight before him.  He never really expected her to warm up to the idea of giving oral sex, but to have her not only be open to it...but slightly eager to, turned on than he had ever been.

Letting a small smile creep across his lips, Justin shifted positions in his chair and allowed her gain access to his now completely swollen shaft.

Once he was free of his confines, Justin bit down on his bottom lip and focused his attention on the curves of Reini's mouth.  The mouth that would soon envelope him in warm wetness.  He was in heaven with the mere thought if it.

"Just because we can't have sex Justin, doesn't mean I can please you in other ways."

"I know Ray."  he replied, never taking his eyes off of her.  "But actions speak louder than words you know."  he continued, reaching forward to trace his thumb across her bottom lips.

Offering him a slight smile, Reini then proceeded to watch Justin lean his head back against the chair in preparation for the pleasure she was hoping to give him.

Then without wasting another second, Reini wrapped her delicate hand around him and began to stroke him rhythmically. 

In what could only be described as a state of complete and utter shock, Justin's eyes flew open and he stared as Reini with disbelief.

"Ray, what are you doing?"  he asked, a tone of irritation evident in his voice.

"Swallowing the lump that was now rising in the back of her throat, Reini removed her hand and sat back down on the heels of her feet.  "I'm sorry.  Was I doing something wrong?"  she asked, her cheeks quickly changing a bright shade of red over her lack of experience in the department.

Studying the look on her face, Justin quickly realized she never had any intention of giving him the pleasure he sought.  She was simply planning on offering him what he could have very well taken care of himself.

"Jesus Christ Ray!  If I wanted to get off to a God damn hand job, I would have just did this myself!"  he said, scooting back some in his chair as glared down at her.

"I'm sorry.  I just thought that..."

"Yeah, me too!"  he said, an annoyed chuckle escaping his lips.

Scrunching her face up, Reini studied the look on Justin's features and tried to figure out what she did wrong.  What she had done so wrong that would elicit such a response.

"Just move Ray.  I gave you way too much credit.  I should have known better."

Taking offense to his behavior and comments, Reini remained seated and glanced up at him.  Then, almost instantly, it hit her.  She knew exactly what his problem was.

"Oh...did you think that....that I was...that I was going to perform oral sex on you?"  she asked, her voice so soft it was barely above a whisper.

"The thought had crossed my mind Ray, but you know what.  This obviously just isn't going to work.  I mean, we're from two different worlds.  You live by the rules, and I live to break them.  I need someone that is going to be there for me completely.  Someone who is willing to make sacrifices for the one they love and I just don't think that's you Ray."  he continued, lifting up slightly from the chair so that he could refasten his jeans.

"Justin, wait!  Don't be like that.  I love you.  You know I do."

"No.  All I know is that when push comes to shove, you talk a big game that you can't back up.  I don't even know why I bothered."

Worried that she had just sealed her own fate and possibly put a permanent wedge in to their currently rocky relationship, Reini took a deep breath and grabbed a hold of his hand.  She knew that she was about to go against everything she was taught, everything she stood for, but suddenly Justin's comment held a bit of truth to it.  She was an adult and she needed to start doing the things she wanted, not that she really wanted to do what she was planning, but she did want to try and fix the problems they were having in their relationship.

"Justin....wait."

Looking down at her, Justin saw a look of desperation wash over her and let out a heavy sigh.

"What?"

"There are other things I can do for you besides have sex?"

"Yeah, I think we just covered that." he replied, picking her hand up and tossing it off to the side.

"That's not what I meant." 

Raising an eyebrow,  Justin looked down at her and wondered if she really meant was he was reading in to her comment.

"And what exactly do you mean Ray?"

Not really wanting to put into words what she was planning, Reini bit her bottom lip and unfastened his pants once again.  She hands shaking with the revelation that she was about to commit a sin.

Taking his cue, Justin once again slid out of his jeans and studied the near mortified look on Reini's face as she laid eyes on him once again.  It was taking everything he had in him to not laugh at her.  She really was as innocent as they came.
Taking another deep breath, Reini gently wrapped her fingers around him and leaned forward.  She knew basically the idea behind the actions, but actually getting herself to perform them proved to be more of a challenge than she thought.

"Anything wrong Ray?"  Justin asked, studying the look of dread on her face.

"Nothing."  she replied, letting out a slow and steady sigh.

After coming to terms with what she was about to do, Reini bent over slightly so that she was hovering just above him.  With the feel of her warm breath raining down, Justin let out a soft moan and braced himself for what he knew what was coming next.

Then out of nowhere it happened.  The moist feeling of Reini's tongue tracing a trail from the center of his shaft up. 
For a moment he contemplated giving her a questioning look as she looked up at him, but quickly thought better of the idea after he saw the look on her face.  The girl was literally on the verge of a breakdown and he honestly didn't have the heart to say anything.

Unfortunately after a few more attempts to enjoy her slightly skewed version of oral sex, Justin knew he had no choice but to speak up.  Extending his hand out to her, Justin cradled her chin in his hand and brought her gaze up to his.

"You don't have to be afraid of it Ray.  It won't bite, I promise."  he said, offering her a small smile.

Trying her best not to be embarrassed, Reini fought against the slight pressure Justin was using to keep her focused on him and looked down. 

"Just relax Ray.  You're making this way more difficult than it needs to be.  Just let it happen." he said, once again bringing her gaze up to meet his.

Seeing a softness in his eyes that she hadn't seen in quite some time, Reini suddenly felt like a weight was lifted from her shoulders.  Her perfomance wasn't on trial and neither was she.  This was simply about the two of them and their realtionship.

Nodding her head that she understood what he meant, Reini smiled softly at him and he let his hand fall back down to his side.  Knowing that Justin wouldn't judge her, she once again brought her mouth closer to him. This time gently wrapping her lips around the tip of his shaft.

Worried that she would soon retreat to her previous attempts at pleasuring him, Justin quickly entwined his fingers in the back of her head and pressed down slightly.  As he did, Reini opened her mouth and allowed him to go deeper.

"Mmmmm.  That's my girl."  he whispered, slowly starting to create a rhythm between them.  "It's ok baby, I got you." 

Relaxing her body even more, Reini allowed Justin to guide her up and down the length of his shaft.  Every once in a while letting her take over the pace as he felt a surge of pleasure creeping up on him.  Finally after what seemed like an eternity, Reini heard a few soft moans escape his lips.  Worried that he may be close, Reini tried to back away.  Unfortunately it was no use.  Placing a bit more pressure on the back of her head, Justin lifted his hips slightly and revelled in the orgasm that was now releasing down the back of Reini's throat.

Once the high of his orgasm began to wind down, he quickly realized that he still had Reini's mouth wrapped tightly around him and gasped slightly.

"Sorry baby. Guess I got caught up."  he said, quickly releasing his hold on her as he stroked the back of her hair.

Unsure of what to say, Reini simply sat back on her heels once again and wiped off her mouth.  Thoughts of guilt and remorse quickly flooding through her.

"See, it wasn't that bad, was it?"  he asked, placing a small kiss on her forehead before getting up to go to the bathroom.

Knowing the best thing for her to do was simply nod her head, Reini did just that and slowly pushed herself up to her feet to head after him.

After watching her walk in to the bathroom beside him, Justin opened the medicine cabinet and pulled out a bottle of mouthwash.

"I'm sure right now you would probably prefer to wash your mouth out with holy water, but this is all I got."  he said, placing the bottle down in front of her before grabbing a small towel from the shelf.

After getting himself cleaned up, Justin tossed the small towel in to the laundry hamper and headed back in to the bedroom to prepare for round two.

"I'll be out in second."  Reini called out to him, quickly twisting the cap off of the bottle of mouthwash.

After placing a small amount of solution in to the cap, she quickly emptied the contents in to her mouth.  For the next few minutes, Reini continued to gargle with the potent solution hoping to wash away every last bit of the salty aftertaste she now had embedded in her mouth.

"You coming Ray?"

Hearing him call for her, Reini quickly spit the solution out and washed it down the sink.  After grabbing another small towel from the shelf, Reini wiped her mouth off and headed back in to the bedroom to join him.

"Come here baby.  I have something for you.  A present, if you will."  he said, gently patting the bed beside him.

"Just let me grab my clothes."

"No.  Just leave them go."  he said, reaching out for her hand. "You can get them later.  Come sit down."

Wrapping her arms around herself,  Reini hoped to feel somewhat less vulnerable around him.  Unfortunately, once she got close enough to him, one quick extension of his arm was all it took to have her standing completely exposed in front of him once again.

"Justin, can I just please get dressed first."

"Actually, for what I have in mind, the clothes need to stay off."

"And what do you have in mind?"  she asked nervously as he pulled her on to the bed.

"Just lay back."

"But Justin...wait..."

"Ray, it's ok.  Just lay back."

Letting out a heavy sigh, Reini slowly lowered her back to the plush comfort of Justin's mattress and just stared up at the ceiling. 

After she was laying back, Justin swung her legs over to the right so that she was now sprawlled out across his bed.

"Do you trust me Ray?"

Hearing his question, Reini placed her hands beside her and attempted to push herself to an upright position to answer him. 

"No, just lay back Ray."

"But..."

"Trust me."  he replied, a sinister smile dancing across his lips as he laid down on the other side of the bed.  "Just listen to what I say and do I as I tell you and everything will be just peachy."  he continued, licking his lips as he stared down at her naked figure.

Trying to focus on anything other than what he was planning, Reini stared up at the ceiling and silently said a small prayer.  Of course she wasn't sure exactly what it was that she was praying for, but just the fact that she was in some form or another reaching out to a higher power made her time while waiting a bit more tolerable. 

"Now, just remember what I said Ray.  Relax."

Chapter 19
 
Before she could even process exactly why he needed her to relax, Reini suddenly felt his hand slide up between her thighs. 
 
"Wait...." 
 
"Relax Ray. I think it's only fair that we both enjoy our time alone...don't you?" he asked, slowly continuing to move his hand upward. 
 
"Justin please...." 
 
Hearing the panic in her voice, Justin stopped his ascent and raised himself up on his elbow. His plans for the evening suddenly being railroaded by the fresh set of tears he saw threatening to spill from Reini's eyes. Yeah, he had hoped that things would progress more with her tonight, but after witnessing her in her current state, he knew he needed to pull back. He loved her, and this wasn't a means of punishing her for being true to herself and her beliefs. 
 
"Ray..." 
 
"Justin please . Please don't make me do this. I'm just...I'm not ready." Reini sobbed, draping her arm gently across the bridge of her nose. "Can't this be enough?" 
 
Knowing he only wanted to try and bring them closer together, and not push them further apart, Justin let out a heavy sigh and reached up to grab a hold of Reini's arm. After pulling it away from her face, he pulled on it ever so slightly and brought them both in to a seated position. 
 
"Alright." 
 
Unsure if she heard him correctly, Reini wiped at her eyes and slowly brought her gaze to meet his. 
 
"Alright." he repeated, this time his voice was even softer than before. "It's enough." 
 
Thankful that Justin was letting her off the hook once again, Reini wrapped her arms around him and heaved a sigh of relief in to the crook of his neck. 
 
"I want you to know that I understand this is a big step for you, but you also need to understand that there will come a point in time Ray when your fears and insecurities won't be enough to stop the inevitable. You know that, right?" 
 
Nodding her head that she understood, Reini felt the overwhelming need to feel protected and she scooted in even closer to Justin. 
 
"Come on, let's lay down." Justin said, shifting postions so that he could lay down beside her. 
 
After raising his arm above him, Justin made a motion with his head for Reini to join him, and without hesitation, she did just that. She wasn't quite sure how she felt at the moment, but knew that she didn't want to give him the cold shoulder anyway. 
 
After snuggling herself in to the small space between his shoulder and chin, Reini let out a heavy sigh. 
 
"You alright?" Justin asked, slowly tracing his fingers up and down the length of her arm. 
 
Simply nodding her head, Reini tried her best to process everything that had happened over the last few hours. It was as if she had been on a roller coaster of emotions and nothing made sense. How could he seriously be laying there beside her, holding her so lovingly against him? An hour hadn't even past since he was literally holding her life in his hands as she dangled from the balcony of his penthouse suite. 
 
"You're awful quiet. What's on your mind Ray?" Justin asked, shifting positions slightly so that he could take her body in to more of a complete embrace. 
 
"Nothing." she replied, briefly looking up in to his eyes. 
 
"Do you really expect me to buy that?" 
 
Knowing he had a point, Reini let out another heavy sigh and locked eyes with him. She knew there was a lot on her mind that she needed to say, but she would be lying if she said she wasn't afraid that it would stir up unnecessary trouble. 
 
"I'm really sorry about everything that happened. Everything with Channing....everything that went down earlier between us in here. I didn't mean to hurt you. I really do love you Justin." she whispered, a lump slowly rising in the back of her throat as feelings of regret took over. "I couldn't imagine not having you in my life and I would never leave you. I hope you know that." 
 
Placing a kiss gently to the top of her head, Justin stroked her hair softly and let out a heavy sigh of his own. 
 
"I'm glad to hear that Ray because honestly...I just.........I don't know what I would do to you if you ever tried to leave." he replied, tightly squeezing his eyes closed in an attempt to block out reality. Especially when he couldn't be sure exactly how far he would take things with her if that ever did occur. The thought alone was simply...terrifying. 
 
Hearing every word he said and understanding every meaning of the tone he said it in, Reini felt the tears threaten to spill from her eyes. 
 
"I'm sorry for earlier too." Justin said, his voice cracking slightly as he mentally flashed back to the sight of Reini hanging precariously from the ledge of his terrace. "I never meant to put you in that kind of danger. It really was an accident." 
 
"I know." she replied softly, exhaustion slowly taking over her body. 
 
Letting out a slight snicker, Justin exhaled deeply and gently slid his arm from underneath her head. After standing up, Justin tossed the throw pillows on to the chair beside the bed and pulled the covers down. 
 
"Come on." he said, patting the small exposed space. "I think we've had enough drama for tonight." 
 
Nodding her head in agreement, Reini crawled over the tossed back comforter and crawled in to the warmth of Justin's bed. After moving to the other side, Justin slid in beside her and pulled the covers back up. 
 
"Now where were we?" he asked, raising his arm once again to invite Reini to join his side. 
 
"Right about here." she replied, her body slowly shutting down as she scooted in closer. 
 
After wrapping his arm around her once again, Justin grabbed the remote from his nightstand and turned off all the lights in the room. 
 
"I love you Reini." 
 
"I love you too Justin." she replied before slowly letting her eyes shut one final time. 

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With the first light of morning beginning to pour in to his suite, Justin let out a hearty yawn and stared at the ceiling above him . After blinking a few times to clear his vision, he glanced to the side and saw one of the most beautiful sights he had ever laid his eyes on. 
 
Brushing away the few stray hairs that draped down over her delicate features, Justin ever so softly placed a kiss to her temple and sat upright. He really didn't expect to sleep as well as he had after the night they had, but surprisingly the comfort of having her in his arms worked wonders for him and his guilty conscience.

After stretching his arms above his head, Justin stood up and headed over to the window that overlooked the city. It was still early and he was just getting his bearings for the day, but looking down at the city streets, clearly the rest of the world had already sprung in to action. 
 
Glancing back at the clock once again, Justin figured he had at least a good two hours before Reini would be getting up and knew he wanted to try and do something for her to make up for last night. After grabbing a fresh pair of boxers from his dresser, Justin walked in to the bathroom and shut the door. 
 
Unfortunately he hadn't been in there for more than five minutes when he heard a knock on the door. 
 
"Justin can I come in?" 
 
"Yeah." he replied, yelling over the sound of the running water from his shower. 
 
Turning the knob on the door, Reini slowly pushed it open. Once the rush of steam escaped back in to his bedroom, the silhouette of Justin's naked frame came in to focus and she blushed. 
 
"I'm sorry for interrupting you, but I need to be down at the studio at 8am for a shoot." 
 
"A shoot?" 
 
"Yeah, I thought I told you about it. It's for a new Calvin Klein perfume ad." 
 
"Ummm...Ok. I don't recall you telling me about it though." he replied, continuing to wash the traces of shampoo from his hair. 
 
"I'm sorry. I could have sworn I told you." 
 
"It's fine Ray. I mean, I planned on spending the day with you but we can always do something when the shoot is over. Maybe grab something to eat?" 
 
"Yeah, I'd love that." she replied, a gentle smile creeping across her lips as she looked up at him. 
 
"You know...there's room for one more in here?" 
 
Letting out a slight chuckle, Reini felt her cheeks begin to blush and looked away. 
 
"It's just a shower Ray." he snickered, opening the door up a little more. 
 
Tossing her head from side to side in thought, Reini slowly slipped off the t-shirt that she had haphazardly thrown on when she got out of bed and tossed it on the small shelf. Once she was all the way inside the shower, Justin closed the door and pulled her in to a loving 
embrace. 
 
"Did you sleep well?" 
 
"A little too well." she giggled, tilting her head to the right to allow Justin more access to the soft skin of her neck. 
 
"Oh really?" 
 
Not wanting to elaborate any more on the subject, Reini just nodded her head and stepped back under the warm spray of the water. Giving her a devilish grin, Justin decided to drop the subject...for now. 
 
After about twenty minutes of rotating shifts under the water, both had finished showering. 
 
"So how long is it going to take you to get ready?" Justin asked, reaching down to turn the water off. 
 
"Honestly, not long at all. All I really have to do is dry my hair and get dressed. The make-up artists and wardrobe people will take care of the rest when I get there." 
 
Nodding his head that it made sense, Justin grabbed a large plush towel from the oak cabinet and wrapped it around Reini's body. 
 
"Well, I'll leave you to do whatever it is you need to do. I'm just going to get dressed and see if the paper is here." he said, grabbing another towel from the cabinet and wrapping it around his waist. 
 
"Ok. Well I'll come find you when I'm done." 
 
"Alright." 
 
Once Justin had walked back in to his bedroom, Reini shut the door and removed the towel from her still damp body. She hadn't really studied the extent of her injuries before, but with the photo shoot only hours away, she had to see what she was going to be up against. What Jamie would be up against. 
 
Turning to her side, Reini began to trace her finger along the six inch bruise just below her ribs. The color had faded from a deep shade of purple to a yellowish green, but it was just as tender as it was the night he kicked her. Deciding that Jamie would more than likely be able to cover that one up, she turned once again and looked for any more imperfections on her once flawless body. 
 
Lifting her arm above her head, Reini continued to check along the other side of her ribs and around towards her back. Convinced she only had that one flaw, Reini was about to lower her arm back down when something else caught her eye. Turning the inner part of her forearm to the mirror, Reini saw three small reddish purple imprints just below her wrist. 
 
"Shit!" 
 
Quickly lowering her arm back down, Reini twisted her arm slightly so that she could get a closer look. Biting down on her bottom lip, Reini studied what she considered a reminder of exactly what Justin was capable of. After letting out a heavy breath, she knew that it was in her best interest to get there early and pull Jamie to the side to enlist his help in covering everything up before anyone saw it. The last thing she needed was people questioning her. 
 
Once she wrapped the towel back around her body, Reini headed back in to Justin's room to get her bag. After placing it up on top of his bed, she unzipped the center compartment and pulled out a small case that held her toothpaste and basic essentials. Once she made sure she have everything she needed, she grabbed a fitted t-shirt and a pair of jeans from her bag and headed back in to the bathroom to get ready. 
 
After about another fifteen minutes, Reini walked back out of the bathroom and in to Justin's room. Once she made sure she had everything she could possibly need to take with her, she grabbed her purse and headed to find Justin.